The Life and Times of Chris Pinnegar

Hello dear friends

So I haven't updated my livejournal in well a really long time, so I thought it only appropriate and such to 
update now before things become really busy.

Halloween is probably my least favourite day of the year.  When people start decorating their houses in things of the dead, as if it were Christmas...instead of Tinsel, they hang cobwebs and orange lights.  They place tombstones instead of Reindeer on the lawn.  People dress as scary ghouls and goblins, in an attempt to scare.  The glorification of death and fear and evil is not my idea of a good time.  Now you're prolly asking, "Chris, didn't you do Halloween as a kid?" The answer is yes, but I never dressed as anything evil or scary, I dressed as things that I read of in books: Peter Pan, or Batman etc.  Never demonic lookin creatures, with blood all over it's body.  Will I allow my children to participate in Halloween.  Of course! Where else are they going to get a butt load of candy?  However, and hopefully, the child will be of the same mind, and not want to dress up as something scary or gross. 

Also tonight is the night that a lot of sacrilige and blasphemous acts occur.  Many satanic cults perform their black masses tonight...where the Blessed Sacrament which they have stolen from Catholic churches will be desecrated...dot no be deceived...this night is not a good night.  Our Blessed Lord, more vulnerable than a baby, is being hated and ruined and made man's toilet.  Jesus Have Mercy.  Thank you for loving us to the point of making yourself so vulnerable that you are desecrated.

I don't like Halloween.
And now onto my life. 

1. Love

In the words of Dj Maj, 
"Love it's so beautiful, baby when you find it, you better cherish it!" from, Love(So beautiful).

I have been finding His Majesty is teaching me to love all over again.  It's such a bittersweet experience.  I 
really love that God is starting to refine the relationship between Julie Ann and I.  It hurts, a lot, sometimes, but it's good...it's growing pains.  In any case, I'm really crazy about Julie.  I love her so much.  It's beautiful. 

I went down to see her last weekend.  It was an incredible time.  Many stories from that weekend include the biggest cruise ship of the Gateway Fleet in Pittsburgh turning around for us, and much more.  That'll come in another post hopefully.

2. Work

I've been hired - FINALLY.  I have been hired to work for Buckland Customs Agency here in St. Thomas.  Basically I'll be doing the paperwork for clients so that their shipments can make it across the border 
efficiently.  I begin on the 6th of November. It's exciting. PRay for me.

3. The School Update
Still working towards the goal, which is Franciscan.  Trusting is hard, because unlike God, I cannot see
what is ahead.  But this is do know: God desires my happiness.  He has given me this Psalm for my 20th year.

Psalm 20:1 To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David. The LORD answer you in the day of trouble! The name of the God of Jacob protect you! 2 May he send you help from the sanctuary, and give you support from Zion! 3 May he remember all your offerings, and regard with favor your burnt sacrifices! [Selah] 4 May he grant you your heart's desire, and fulfil all your plans! 5 May we shout for joy over your victory, and in the name of our God set up our banners! May the LORD fulfil all your petitions!

6 Now I know that the LORD will help his anointed; he will answer him from his holy heaven with mighty victories by his right hand. 7 Some boast of chariots, and some of horses; but we boast of the name of the LORD our God. 8 They will collapse and fall; but we shall rise and stand upright. 9 Give victory to the king, O LORD; answer us when we call.

Therefore I think He desires to take care of me.  I am awfully glad.     
Anyways I should run.

Keep on lovin'!
~Chris

+JMJ+

Here's a List of "WHAT I CAN'T WAIT TO DO's" (and hope to's) this end of Summer/Fall
Concerts
Sept. 6th,  - Zao, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster (Completed)
Sept. 12th, Dinner with my sister Becky
Sept. 18th, Haste the Day, August Burns Red, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Inhale/Exhale
Sept. 20th  Starfield
Sept. 25th, Underoath, He Is Legend, Silverstein, Moneen
Sept 29th, Julie Vanhie and the Brothers in Household in Steubenville Ohio


CD Releases
Showbread - The Age of Reptiles 
mewithoutYou - Brother Sister
Norma Jean - Redeemer - September 12, 2006
He is Legend - Suck Out The Poison - Oct. 3rd, 2006
Skillet - Comatose

+JMJ+

Hola 

I feel like being poetic
So I'm going to just write, and we'll see what comes out.


I'm being led by the road
Seeing where it'll lead me
In this case the destination and journey are the same
Because it's all You

Heaven and Earth are one
one specific moment ranging from eternity to eternity
One love reaches the ends of history and pulls it together
on a table for me

Your arms outstretched
Your death victorious
Your rising, my life
Your Love, my Only Hope

Death where is your sting?
What can you dare say?
For I stand on Him
Not my own two feet

My weapons locked and loaded
My power secure
For it's not in my own strength I rely
But only in You

Adversary lies in wait
To ambush from behind
But my Stronghold is Love
who conquers all

So many fear the one defeated
So many scare at his tactics
his war cry is only a wimper
compared to the Roar of the Lion of Judah

the enemy's declaration
'Israel forget your redeemer'
My declaration is this
"MY REDEEMER CONQUERS"

And so today I declare war
with the Saints and Angels
Martyrs and Mystics
MY GOD WINS

I will not be silent
I will not shut up
I will not give up
I will not hide

The Cross is my strength
The Eucharist my General
For I am not afraid of darkness
Light shatters darkness like glass

I BELONG TO THE HOLY ONE
I AM MY BELOVED'S
HIS LOVE IS MY LIFE
HIS ROMANCE, MY EVERYTHING

~Chris Pinnegar

JMJ

They say you never know what you have until it is gone.
Maybe I'm selfish.
Honestly...I can go to school, and become the person God intends me to be... but no...
No one else should be able to do the same because they should be there, just the same when I return.
GOSH.
Thanks flesh...
Anyways...all of my friends are going away...thanks to the Call of God on their lives...they are all going away...like I did...even the youth minister at my parish is going to be leaving...blessed be the Name of the Lord!

Praised Be Jesus Christ Now and Forever for the fact that He never leaves, changes, abandons.

anyways with life news, here's Chris.
Thanks Chris.
Okay so in my life's news.
This past weekend, my friend Mike stayed over.  We went on Friday night "bar-hopping" in moderation of course.   I always need to make that distinction, because people can get the impression that it's not in moderation for me and my friends....but yeah...I'm living for Yeshua...so I live by His precepts cuz I heart him.  So.  We went around to a few bars, handed out business cards, did all that...and came home.  Played some musical chess.  Chatted with Julie and some other peeps.  Generally just had fun, until we dropped.  Woke up, partied, ate, hung out, went to Jumbo and then he left.
Tonight I'm going over to Mike's house for a goodbye/end of the year party.  Maybe dropping over to see Yeshua at the Adoration chapel...perhaps...and then talking with Julie at midnight...phone dates...fun times :-P   You do what you gotta do.  I wish I could just see her for real.

Right now, I'm outside and God is romancing through the slight breeze and a beautiful squirrel, laying on a tree branch beside me.  Now the little guy is sitting... in like a pondering position.  It looks like it is going to rain...you can kinda smell it if you breathe deeply.   

I feel this Summer is coming to an end...the summer nights are cooling off...becoming almost sweater worthy...this is scary.  
The days fade to night much more quickly now.
The Iron Horse Festival here in St. Thomas always signified to me that school was on my doorstep as a kid.
Speaking of...the Iron Horse Festival enforces my beliefs that St. Thomas is one of the dirtiest towns in the WORLD...I mean...Calcutta is prolly worse...but just the majority of the people here....*shutter*...you know like...you don't need money to be "clean"...it's a mindset that people have...a lifestyle.  It's just not the place where I would want MY children to grow up.  Maybe Julie is convincing me that country-life is more appealing...I don't know though...I doubt it's that...I'm still partial to city-life...just not St.Thomas LIFE.  25% more life - more crap maybe.  Like I said to Mike...this is the greatest community to live in if you just want to disappear...because community just DOES NOT exist here. No one knows anyone...or maybe if they do...they just don't care about you.  For the most part.  It sucks...a community that doesn't have community kinda reflects the spirituality of the city as well...anyways enough ranting...I should get ready to leave for Dorkfester!  Later yall!

Peace my homeslices
~Chrispy

I fly to nowhere to escape the painful reality of this world
To see the beauty my creator has in store for me
The promised land, no more shadowed land
We meditate on the king of all creation
A place where tears and fears drift away
This right here's a brand new day
I never wanna leave
All I wanna do is stay the rest of my days
In this brand new place called Zion, Zion
No one, nothing can take away this promise given to me 
Escape by Justifide

 

+JMJ+

The wisest words I ever heard
Came with a gentle wind
Though it didn’t hit me then
It made no sound
‘Til no one was around
This it blew me to my knees
And handed me the keys

Go, just go where the peace is
You always know if you seek it
Go, just go where the peace is
You always know if you seek it
- The Foster by Cool Hand Luke

So today I said goodbye. 
I do not understand myself sometimes...
I thought I had let go a week ago...I didn't think it would be this hard.
I had said my goodbyes on Sunday and just wanted to be present to see my best friend embark on the newest phase of her journey.  
So I went a spent a lil time in the morning with her before she left.  
We saw our first sunrise together.
We packed her van,
Got her all taken care of.
They then jumped into the van and drove away.
I ran so fast to the adoration chapel.
Even there...no tears came...just desire; desire to have her hold my hand and be with Jesus with me, to hold me, to be there.
It wasn't until I got in the car after spending that time with Jesus, who just sat there with me and held me, that it hit me.
Julie had written on my car's window "I sorry.  I <3 you" as a lil inside joke with her finger...it only shows up when the window is fogged up.
However as weird as it sounds...I got in the car...and there was no fog elsewhere except around the place where she wrote that.
It hit me.
Like a ton of bricks.
She's not here.
I think I had a taste of what Mary Magdalene experienced when she arrived at the Tomb...and her Beloved friend was gone.
Frantically wanting Him back so she could take care of Him.
They were the best of friends...she loved him so badly, and just wanted Him back. 
Jesus saw this, and surprised her by calling her by name...
She ran and embraced Him...She had Him back...she couldn't keep Him though...He needed to ascend to the Father.
How badly that must have hurt.
Your best friend returns only to leave again.
Sure, He set her free.  Sure, He would send His Spirit to her to make her a witness to the world.
But she could never hug Him in this life again.
When the pain came...she'd only be able to pray.
I feel very similar.
Though I know I'll see her...and soon...for some reason...my heart is broken, I can't really help it.
I can't help but cry.
Sure call me emo
Call me oversensitive.
I don't care.
The more open to desire you become, as John Eldredge says, the more vulnerable to pain you become. 
And as Jonathan Critchlow says, "Pain is to suffer and to suffer is to love"
Every tear that falls
proves one thing
I HAVE LOVED
and
I HAVE BEEN LOVED.
And so, let this pain pierce every part of me
to remind me that Love lives in me.

Hey, it’s me
I’m sorry it’s so late
I can’t sleep
I knew You’d be awake (Psalm 121:4)
You’re always home
Waiting by the phone
For nights like these
When I’m feeling all alone

I wish it didn’t always
Have to be this way
I wish that I could talk to You
Face to face
But nothing compares to the way
You always listen and know just what to say

Hold my hand
I can’t stand alone
Here I am
Waiting for You to take me home

Oh, I just want to sing
I only wish there was a word
For what You mean to me
I would only say it once
In hushed tones
So it would not grow old
But all I have
Is “I love You”

You’re my Jesus, You’re my hero
Everything I wish that I could be

You’re the one who comforts me
When everyone is gone away
I can’t stand alone
Here I am
Waiting for You to take me home

And I will keep on singing
Because You hear me
And I will keep on smiling
Because You’re near me

I’ll sleep well on a promise tonight.

~Rest For the Weary by Cool Hand Luke

+JMJ+

If I was a basket filled with holes
Then she was the sand I tried to hold
And ran out behind me
As I swung with some invisible hands

~Paper Hanger  by mewithoutYou

So, ten days and she's gone.  It's a super scary proposition.  Gosh.  
However, the beauty that I have seen in this relationship is something so utterly powerful.
What an amazing Father, who gives so much to those whom He loves.
I'm satisfied.

So God romances us in so many ways.
As of right now.  He's romancing me through a little kitten, lovingly named "Pookie".
This kitten was abandoned, and needed someone to take care of it, while the Vanhie's went away for the weekend.
So I said I would.  However, I didn't know what to expect.
The kitten was found to be "wet"...turned out to be covered in an oily/greasy substance...
It's eyes are infected.
It's super skinny.
Sleeps a lot. 
Just needs some real TLC. 
Anyways, but as I'm sitting there, feeding it milk
and it opens it's hurting and infected eyes and looks at me
somehow I can't but help think of the One who created it;
who is loving me through it.
The One who knows of every sparrow that falls.  He saw this abandoned kitten and used it in the Story of His Love for me.
Wow.  

So my beloved one is going camping for the weekend...it'll be good for her to get away...from me.  LOL.
Dear detachment...thanks for being so hard.  Love me.
My good friend Jason is coming to visit.
He's awesome.
He was on NET with me.
Loves God and good music.
So he's coming tonight.
That's exciting.
I'm leading music for LifeTeen Mass this weekend...fun times no?

Anyways I love livejournal.
I love bed
I love getting out of here.
Later days.

+JMJ+

The distance between goodbyes and hellos
for God a moment; for me, an eternity
Why are these goodbyes constant?
It's like the joy of attachment only lasts a moment...and then it's gone.
Where did God get the idea that detachment was the only way to union with Him alone?
The logic of the Lover.  
Don't worry, He knows how I feel...and understands it.
He's been there.
Gethsemane looks very much like my room right now though, or at least feels like it.
I feel very much like I'm about to climb the hill to another crucifixion.  
Father, if it be your will, take this cup from me, but not my will, but Yours.

+JMJ+

What a week!  From Sunday to Sunday, God has done INCREDIBLE deeds!  
You ever stand at the shorelilne of a lake or ocean, when the waves are incredibly violent, and have a wave knock you underneath and pull you down a lil in it's sheer power? 
Or perhaps have someone chase after you and then tackle you from behind when you least expect it?  You ever have the wind knocked out of you?
Well, right now, I feel this way about God.  I feel He's pulling me under the waters of His love.  
Right when I least expect it, He throws Himself on top of me and tells me in my ear that He loves me.

This week was a week of Sacred Romance. 
God showed me His Love through Julie's love for me...which is in all truth, not her love at all, but simply her response and openess to the Love that flows from the heart of God, and which IS God to flow onto me.
Through her eyes, I see the eyes that look on me from the Cross; a gaze of pure and reckless and holy love, that could only be of the Master. 
Oh God, the beauty is incredible.  Thank you!
Through fortune cookies, and dinner, and laughter, and singing, and rhymes.
Inside jokes and personals, triples, punchbuggies, farm, and pink clothing.
To movies, and  old friends, and the Tour de Timmie's and Hot Turkey Jampackets.
To 2 Weddings, and music, and corn, chicken, and the crazy Vanhie BBQ.
To the love affair between Precious and Luke
To Minigolf, the Pinny-virus, 5-pin bowling, Dairy Queen.
Returning for 2nd hugs
To Crabby Joe's, to 3 smirnoff ices, and a Tequilla Shot, and a taste of Amaretto.
To drinking in moderation, but learning that I have limits.
To loud music, and Goldeneye, and straight lines.
To sleeping in, and again the ultimate Romance...The Wedding Feast of the Lamb, the Mass.
To goodbyes.
To eating chicken nuggets and gazing on a beautiful sunset, while speaking tenderly with THE BELOVED. 
To sudden moves of the Spirit while driving
to tears. 
To laying on my bed, listening to worship
to livejournal

HE NEVER STOPS ROMANCING ME
HE NEVER STOPS SEEKING AND RUNNING AFTER ME
WHETHER I "FEEL" IT OR NOT
I AM MY BELOVED'S AND MY BELOVED IS MINE

+Abba.  Thank you so much for your incredible passion for me.  My beloved Father, thank you for seeking me out.  I need you.
Continue to romance me.  Jesus, my passion and life.  I surrender to You.  
Allow me to become so incredibly in love with you that nothing can break it.
Thank you for my darling and beautiful best friend Julie.
Thank you for her incredible response to your love and her choice to love me.
Thank you for Luke.  For his love and joy and passion.
Thank you for Iain, Fr. Graham, Chris Bray.
Thank you for loving me, who is so unworthy of it, yet you don't call me because I'm worthy, but because You are so incredibly and passionately in love with me, and that love makes me worthy.
Jesus I love you.  I trust in You.
In the chaos and confusion, when the waves come crashing, You are sovereign still, and my God and my Lover forever.
Mary, Mother of the Divine Lover, show me how to love Him recklessly like you do.
Protect me and my relationships.
Be my queen and my guide forever.
By your powerful intercession, make me holy.
And in Jesus' Name I pray this, through Mary.
AMEN

+JMJ+

Hey guys, so I'm feeling more in the emo zone right now, not that I'm feeling "Emo", just feeling more like writing emo stuff, like poetry.  Whatever.  I just feel like writing, so I will. 

True Love is not a lamp. 
It cannot be turned on and off.  
The power doesn't go out on it.  
It doesn't burn out or even flicker. 
It is a constant. 
True Love is God, and that's why it never dies.
Love surrounds me.

So, the Divine Lover is still moving.  Shall we say, flirting. 
He's totally changed mindsets in me.  Wow, everything has turned into a Sacred Romance.  
It's becoming ever more clear to me that He's in Love with me. 
The Romance I long for, He gives...not always in the way I want, but in the way I truly need and the way my heart and soul desires.
What a God!  

God's seriously changing me again.  Does He ever stop transforming, reforming, creating?  Never.  
Sitting in prayer is like sitting in a furnace.  God's seriously firing my heart in His Love.  I like it, it hurts, but I like it because I know He's doing a work in me that's far 
greater than I know.

The new-found romance has me very excited.  It's like walking around blindfolded, guided by a loving hand, into a place I have never been before. 
God's seriously romancing me like crazy.  
He's Romancing me through the Sacraments.
He's romancing me through Julie.
Clouds, and thunder, and rain.  
Sunshine and birds
The smell of wet and freshly cut grass. 
Darkness...I love it! 
The sound of familiar songs...that can simply grab your heart while you shop in Wal-mart, or sit on your computer.

HE'S THE ULTIMATE ROMANCER! 

My family went and celebrated my mother's birthday yesterday at the Mandarin Buffet in London - Oh my gosh...God romances me through spicy and good food.  Anyways I brought my best friend Julie with us.  So we sat there and ate our food, and had good times together.  However, at the end of the meal, we received our fortune cookies.  Now, don't get the idea that I'm giving credibility to such a thing as a fortune cookie...I mean, your finances may not change because the fortune cookie says so.  However, one thing is certain.  God does whatever it takes to romance His beloved.  So as Julie and I are sitting there.  I open my fortune cookie and almost drop it.  It reads "Your romance will be a long and lasting one."  Julie and I look at each other in sheer amazement.  How the heck?  Again it's all the Divine Lover grabbing us by the heart.  

So this is my song.  Oh how I love Him.  My Beloved.  

1 Solomon's Song of Songs.

2 Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth-- for your love is more delightful than wine. 3 Pleasing is the fragrance of your perfumes; your name is like perfume poured out. No wonder the maidens love you! 4 Take me away with you--let us hurry! Let the king bring me into his chambers. 5 Dark am I, yet lovely, O daughters of Jerusalem, dark like the tents of Kedar, like the tent curtains of Solomon. 6 Do not stare at me because I am dark, because I am darkened by the sun. My mother's sons were angry with me and made me take care of the vineyards; my own vineyard I have neglected.

7 Tell me, you whom I love, where you graze your flock and where you rest your sheep at midday. Why should I be like a veiled woman beside the flocks of your friends? 8 If you do not know, most beautiful of women, follow the tracks of the sheep and graze your young goats by the tents of the shepherds. 9 I liken you, my darling, to a mare harnessed to one of the chariots of Pharaoh. 10 Your cheeks are beautiful with earrings, your neck with strings of jewels. 11 We will make you earrings of gold, studded with silver.

12 While the king was at his table, my perfume spread its fragrance. 13 My lover is to me a sachet of myrrh resting between my breasts. 14 My lover is to me a cluster of henna blossoms from the vineyards of En Gedi. 15 How beautiful you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful! Your eyes are doves. 16 How handsome you are, my lover! Oh, how charming! And our bed is verdant. 17 The beams of our house are cedars; our rafters are firs.   ~Song of Solomon 1.

+JMJ+

So it thus begins.  I've finally given in to the LiveJournal Cult...as I did Myspace, and iTunes, and Facebook.
So to Miss Fogarty and Luke, thanks, you win! 

This is going to be my new addiction, along with Facebook.  Hooray
It's cool.  I think I could get used to writing in this.

So here's the deal, if this is to be my journal, I need to write down what I'm thinking right?
Hmmm....

~THE SURPRISE~
So, G-d has begun a courtship between Julie and I.  
It has come completely out of the blue.
You see, God's been taking myself and Julie on a journey of desire...He's been leading us down into our hearts, and revealing to us who we really are.
Specifically through "Captivating" a book written by John and Stasi Eldredge, G-d revealed to Julie more of who she was as a daughter of His, and more of who He is as her Father and Lover.
Through "Waking the Dead" by John Eldredge, G-d revealed to me where I have been wounded, and where I had gone wrong in my understanding of the Christian Life.  Basically I had forgot the battle.  I ignored the enemy of my heart, satan, and let him beat the living crap out of me with his subtle lies and agreements that I made with him.  So G-d restored and healed my heart through that book.
Through all of this, Julie and I are experiencing heart restoration, and receiving new insight, which was only preparing us for something even bigger: THE SACRED ROMANCE.
After she had completed "Captivating", we felt that G-d was saying we needed to study "The Sacred Romance" by John Eldredge and Brent Curtis.
So we did.  G-d started taking us on a journey together, through the study of "The Sacred Romance" revealing to us, how He is so passionately in love with us and how He romances us.
For me, the whole time I read it, I wanted to see G-d romance me and surprise me.  I knew He loved me through sunsets and thunderstorms, and I knew that He caressed me with the wind.  I knew He loved to take me on adventures down creeks and beaches.  I knew I was loved by Him through city life - through the sounds of hustle and bustle.  He romances me through architecture and art, Cathedrals and Basilicas, Monastaries and Convents.  Icons and Portraits.
But in all of this, and like the book said, we long for more than just this. 
I longed for intimacy.
G-d wanted to give it.
At the same time, The Divine Lover was stirring the same thing in Julie's heart.

And so, the Divine Lover surprises us.

God starts putting on my heart a strong pull toward Julie.  I had had an attraction to her before, but never like this.  IT freaked me out.
At this point, He is doing something very similar in her heart.  It freaked us both out.
The more I fought, the more He pulled. 
The more I yelled for Him to stop because I was afraid, the more the rains came...which is another story in itself.  
Finally, I had to share it, so I did.  I took Julie to my cottage, and took her down the beach to a secluded sandy area, very beautiful, and unforgettable.  
As we sat there, eating our peanut butter and jam (NOT JELLY) sandwiches...I could hardly contain myself.  
Heart pounding, palms sweating...scared to death that this could be the wrong decision, I just had to trust God, and talk.  So after she finished her sandwich...I looked at her and said "We made a commitment to be completely honest with each other, right?"  She nods and says in her very "Julie-like" voice, "Yeah".  I said, "Okay, I have to admit something to you"  
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING PINNY?  THIS ISN'T RIGHT!  DON'T DO IT" , the enemy and my flesh screams at me.
"Trust me!", The Divine Lover says ever so quietly. 
Okay...satan you lose.
So, heart starts pounding...."Julie I uhh...I have an attraction to you.  A big one"
Turns out, it was very similar for her.  
G-d had made an attraction there very present...even after we tried ignoring it and hiding it, and lying about it. 
We then discussed what we felt God wanted us to do, whether to wait or court, since we have been best friends for almost three years, it's not like we were going to "date" to get to know each other.  I'm sitting there, saying like all my apprehensions right...like we're going to be apart because of school, blah blah blah, and the whole time, she's the contently nodding her head.  I look at her, "What Julie?"   "Let's just go for it", She says.  I couldn't believe it.  This is huge!  I was speechless, overjoyed, ecstatic.  
She wanted to go on another adventure with me; one that could take a lifetime to complete if the Divine Lover wills it.
And thus began the new adventure.
The Divine Lover surprised us again.  
He had been preparing us that whole time, just so we could become the best friends that we were meant to be.
Simply by grabbing our hands while we weren't looking, and leading us to a place we had only dreamt of.
A G-d this wild, should never be put in a "box" (Not talking the Tabernacle..He puts Himself there)! 
(THAT'S RIGHT Franciscan University I said it - you can't box in the Lion of Judah)
My goodness.  So as we sat there on that beach, I have told this to some of my friends, and it may sound kinda charismatic, whateva, but there are times in worship where G-d is so present, that you feel you are touching Him, like you can feel Him breathing.  He moves so powerfully that you feel He's holding you ever so tightly - especially through Eucharistic Adoration.  However, on that beach, the Spirit of the Living G-d was so present that I thought I had been in worship for hours. It was so immense and heavy.  I knew it was His plan that we be together, and that He desired to use this relationship to reveal His glory in some way.  In any case, we know above all that in this relationship, G-d is not only author but main character in this Romance.  He's the most important part of the story.

This being so, the enemy has seen it.  this vile hateful angel desires to destroy the glory of G-d in this relationship.  
We have already encountered it.  However if the Wild Divine Lover did not reveal to us through those books before hand the enemy's plot, we wouldn't have seen it coming.  Long story short, He prepared us for battle, so that we could battle for each other, and for all those in our lives.

G-d is so wildly amazing, and I'm passionately in love with Him.  What a Lover!  
Anyways this is the end.  I am presently on the phone with the woman I love, and all is right in the world...except for Buffy...she's messed up.  jk jk...Buffy is Julie's dog/child...she's awesome.  Anyways Goodnight ya'll.  

In His Eucharistic Heart,
~Chris

+FIAT+

"46 And Mary said, "My soul magnifies the Lord, 47 and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, 48 for he has regarded the low estate of his handmaiden. For behold, henceforth all generations will call me blessed; 49 for he who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is his name. 50 And his mercy is on those who fear him from generation to generation. 51 He has shown strength with his arm, he has scattered the proud in the imagination of their hearts, 52 he has put down the mighty from their thrones, and exalted those of low degree; 53 he has filled the hungry with good things, and the rich he has sent empty away. 54 He has helped his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy, 55 as he spoke to our fathers, to Abraham and to his posterity for ever." - Luke 1:46-55